OK! To say that I forgot about this thing is a COMPLETE understatement.

And it wasn't so much that I forgot about it...just more that basically jack squat ever really happens worth writing about half the time. And when something of some signifigance does occur, I don't think to post on here or it's something I doubt anyone but myself really gives 2 shits about.

And there's been times where I've come on here, typed out a full entry, and bagged it before I finish because I find myself BITCHING non-stop and I don't want this to be a bitchy journal.

But for God's sake, all anyone does is bitch around here(and by here, I mean my house), so it's quite contagious.

And I don't want to post garbage for the sake of ranting and getting it out of my system, because honestly I run my mouth (or rather my fingers in this case) and say crap I don't mean cuz I get all kinds of angry and I have a complete inability to say stuff to people's faces when I'm mad/angry/upset/et al.

ANYWAY, I'm gonna try to do better about this thing. I'm actually kinda mad that I haven't been updating religiously like I used to, because I won't be able to come back to this thing years from now and read about how my senior year was...but I'll have quite a record of the 2 years prior...mainly because life rocked then (and by then I of course mean 10th grade, obv.) and now it SUCKS...which brings us back to why I never update.

Jesus, it's a cycle.

A vicious one at that.

I don't even know where to start right now...

well, I guess, for 1- I'm going to Canisius, as opposed to UT. Long story short: UT was far too much money and didn't even offer the major I wanted. Canisius has a wayyyy better program, it's gonna be one hell of a lot cheaper, and I'll get more travel opportunities, which is exciting.

2- 10 DAYS UNTIL BALL!!!!!! (I'm excited can't you tell?)

and yeah, I gotta go do stuff...ness.

Yeah, that.

Oh,yeah, and it's been...2 years and...4 months as of today. Call me a loser, but, I'm still keepin track.

Ok, first off: We went camping last weekend up at Sandy's trailer (Sandy is Allen's mom, which I'm sure I've mentioned before, but there it is again). It was quite amazing. Shawn came with us so it made it that much more fun. We went Friday after my mom got off work and Shawn and I left Sunday morning at 5 am so he could get home and to the zoo by 7. Anyway, it was mass amounts of fun. We walked down the beach and stuff so my sister and her friend could gather some rocks, then Shawn and I went back later and sat on the beach until I got creeped out cuz it was bitch black out and there were creepy lights in the water that I swear looked like they were floating towards us ( I scare easily...go figure). Sleeping arrangements were fun. Brett got the couch, my mom, mandy and her friend were on the blowup mattress, I had about a foot of room between the couch and the mattress on the floor and Shawn slept up near my head. Him and I spent half the night making faces at eachother. I finally fell asleep after 3 but kept waking up and Shawn didn't sleep well either. But from the sound of all the snores, everyone else slept like babies. I woke up for the last time around 8 or so, and Shawn was awake and everyone else slept for awhile longer. Shawn and I spent a good chunk of the day exploring the wilderness, playing in the sand, and being stalked by creepy old guys in the woods . Then everyone went to a few diff. apple orchards and stuff which was pretty fun. After dinner Shawn and I took Mandy and her friend to the beach so they could "not get more rocks" (which they did anyway) so Shawn and I layed on the beach and I was lookin at all the stars while he was tossing rocks at the girls. Quite amusing. Back at the trailer we watched "Legally Blonde 2" (it was funny in a couple spots but pretty damn stupid otherwise). Shawn and I attempted to sit outside by the fire with all the adults (who were all falling over drunk) until they started talking about balls and sex and made us go back inside (we're obviously not mature enough to handle that kind of stuff...losers). Sleeping Saturday night was even better cuz Allen got the couch which meant brett was on the inflatable mattress. Again Shawn and I spent half the night giggling at everyone's snoring. I finally fell alseep well after 2, and we dragged our asses up and out at 5. I took Shawn home, went home myself, and crashed for a few hours. So yeah, it was a great weekend.

Now, moving on...

Note: The next 3 paragraphs of this entry are a complete rant(I didn't mean to rant but I did and put too much time into typing it to erase it all). So go ahead and skip over that, there's nothing special about it except me bitching about CNS and my family getting on my nerves.

Sooooo homecoming was amazing. Seriously. I had the greatest time. I just wish I coulda somehow been at the Pep Rally. You have no idea how much it kills me that I couldn't be a part of that. I feel like I'm missing so much and it absoutely tears me apart. This is supposed to be the greatest year of my highschool career and I'm meant to spend it with the people that mean the most to me, the people who I'm going to be leaving in the summer and may never see again (at least not for a long time). But instead I'm in CNS with maybe 2 or 3 people that I can call good friends, but not best,not great, just barely good. And honestly those few people I can say haven't made an impact on my life, and I'm sure I'll forget them in a couple of years. But the people in WG I hope to know for my entire life, and here it is the last year we're all going to be together in one spot, and I only get to see them once every few weeks. It's not enough. I've been dealing with this same shit since I moved last year. And for awhile it got a little better. Sure I still missed everyone, and sure CNS still sucked balls, but I was dealing with it. But now the clock is ticking, and I'm realizing that more and more each day, and it really hit me hard last night. There's not gonna be much more of this. 37 more weeks of school.37 weeks. I don't think it's fair that I have to drag through school everyday, never really looking forward to it. I deserve to having a great time damnit. My sophomore year, I looked forward to school. Every damn day. I looked forward to spending time with my boyfriend and my friends everyday. But I haven't had that to look forward to in over a year now, so I find myself wishing more and more for the weekend "let this week be over already. Hopefully I'll get to see Shawn, maybe I'll get to see a friend or two" so instead of enjoying every day I've got left in what's supposed to be the greatest year of school I'll ever have, I keep wshing for it to go faster so I can get to the next weekend or the next dance or the next party or the next whatever that gets me out of the boring portion of my life.

Top all this off with the fact that I can barely stand half the people in my house half the freaking time. Lately my mom just seems to be in a bad moodquite a bit. Every other minute I'm getting fussed at for something or another whether it's my fault or not. Apparently I'm lazy and I don't care and I don't appreciate anyone or anything and I'm a self centered teenager and blah blah blah. I'm far from lazy, I do more shit around the house than anyone else. I do the dishes everyday, and one day I got home from school and I was exhausted so I took a nap and didn't get the dishes done by the time she got home...yeah, so I'm completely lazy cuz of that. And I'm obviously selfcentered and don't care about anyone else cuz I spend half the night in my room away from everyone else. Granted half the time mandy is in there every 5 minutes asking me things or wanting to watch TV or something with me and that's fine. But since I don't sit in the living room all night with everyone watching shit I don't care about or putting up with her bf farting and stanking up the whole first floor of our house, I don't care. Excuse me for having homework or other crap I'd rather be doing.

I'm not saying it's always bad, honestly most of the time we all cohabitate as a happy little family. I love dinner with my family, usually we have so much fun. And a lot of the time my mom and I are messing around and joking with eachother, she's like a big kid and I hope I can be that much fun with my kids. And honest to God I love her to death, she's an incredible woman, and my little sister is absolutely amazing and completely adorable, my brother can be fun when he wants to be, and Allen is hysterical and him and I pick on eachother all the time. But it's the stupid stuff when we're all arguing and can't stand eachother that stands out.

Gosh, I didn't mean for this whole entry to turn into a complete rant that no one really gives a damn about. So sorry for boring u

So, back to the subject of this entry. As the title suggests,Wildcats really do it best.I had the greatest time at the dance last night. I ghetto danced, I booty danced, I grinded a human pole or 2, I made those blinky lights inappropriate... it was all quite amazing. Granted I didn't get a good slow dance all night cuz Shawn is a total whore, but I've got another dance next Saturday, so he can make it up then  and I had tons of fun dancing regular with him, so it's all good. We all went to Denny's afterwards for some food. It was quite fun there. Then Shawn and I went back to his house after, which was empty. Perfect opportunity for some, maybe, but I was creeped out and Shawn took much delight in practically scaring the piss out of me.Literally.I reeeeeaaallly had to pee and he decided it'd be cute to tackle me and scream like a monkey while doing so. I screamed, called him a little fucker then we both busted out laughing because all the windows in the house were open, and I'm sure a neighbor or 2 was ready to call the cops and report a rape in progress or something.

Annnnd....ummm....yeah. Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1-Yet another dance next Saturday which I get to get all nice and dressed up for.
2- Camping with Shawn and his family in 2 weeks (wooooooot)
3- Panic! At the Disco Concert November 17th avec Harsma

And I won't be able to update again for probably a month because the next weekend that I'm sposed to be here is the weekend I'm going camping. So, unless the magic computer fairy decides to fix my computer soon, adios till the end of October.

OK, so this is gonna be a quick post. I'm taking a break from all this damned packing I'm doing before I completely lose my mind.

Today has been my last full day in TN. To say the least I'm quite depressed. My last day of work was yesterday and it was an amazing day all around. I got some really nice gifts (which I honestly wasn't expecting at all) and on top of that they got me this absolutely gorgeous cake (that I took a picture of and will post when I'm in NY). I closed with Abby, so we of course had fun. Her and Diane (one of the waitresses) threw buckets of ice water on me at the end of the night. Then just before I left, Michael (one of the dish washers and one of the sweetest guys ever) sprayed me down with the hose in the dish hole. I thought it was soooo funny. So I hugged everyone a bunch and then made my way out of Aunt Granny's and Dollywood for the last time until... November. But whatever. It was still emotional. And yes I know I'm a loser and a half.

Today I've been packing off and on all day and went to the store once with my grandma, then again with my Uncle Danny. Other than all that not much has gone on today. But I'm a mess now cuz I'm about to start crying because we leave here in...8 and a half-ish hours. But what can I say? Time marches on, and I'll see everyone soon enough.

Ok, so on that note I'm outta here. I have to get this damned packing done and take a shower and get some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

So here's to one more a-m-a-z-i-n-g summer in one of my favorite places to be. It'll be greatly missed by this time tomorrow.

~Carrie~

Oh Rocky Top
You'll Always Be
Home Sweet Home To Me
Good Ol' Rocky Top
ROCKY TOP TENNESSEE

I haven't updated in like a week. A lot has been going on in that week.

Wednesday I visited UT. It's pretty much amazing. I'm in love with the campus. At this point I'm basically not gonna accept any other college. It's UT or nothing...well, not nothing, but u get the point. I'll be devistated if I don't make it in, I've loved this place since I was 8. One of the best parts of it is that I'll be reallllly close to my grandparents and my uncle and everything. Cuz I really don't wanna get too far out of my comfort zone for college. So if I don't make it into UT then I'll probably stay in NY. I used to always tell myself that I was gonna get as far away as I could for college just to be by myself and start new somewhere... but that idea died like a year or 2 ago. Now I don't wanna get too far away from what I know. But who knows, maybe I'll change my mind again.

All last week Shawny Boy was in Sea World at an Adventure Camp, being cool and making me reallllllly jellous. No, not because he was hanging out with cute girls almost all day everyday for a week,that didn't bug me, but because the loser got to pet dolphins, swim with them, pet penguins, jump into a shark cage, SCUBA dive, snorkle and do allllllll of this crap that I would like...give my left pinky toe to be able to do. I almost got to go myself, but it was basically the trip or the car. Yeah, I needed the car. But, I'm glad my Dork had an amazing time... even if he did forget my keychain  And now he's off to Galveston Texas to visit his future college and go to the greatest water park in the universe. The boy is really gettin around this summer.

I'm reminded daily that my time in TN is ending soon, and it's killing me. We had this big shop meeting this morning with our boss, Art, and toward the end of the meeting my Grandma reminded everyone that my last day is in a week. So all day everyone kept giving me hugs saying they're gonna miss me and they don't wanna see me leave and all this stuff. I'm gonna miss everyone when I leave (even one of the pain in the ass cooks who does nothing but give me a hard time) they're all like family to me and I'm so happy I've gotten to have this amazing experience with all these great people, not just once, but twice. But oh well, I'm not gonna worry about the amount of time I have left, I'm just gonna enjoy every day of it while it's here.

Don't get me wrong, I miss all of u in NY massively,of course.

Despite the fact that I don't want my time here to end, I can't wait for August 27th. I got tickets for Shawn and I to go see The Black Eyed Peas at the fair. It's the first concert I'll have been to since.. Garth Brooks when I was like 7. Yeah, sad, I know. And it's Shawn's late late late late late B-day present from me, so now I don't have to worry about buying him something that he probably wouldn't like anyway. So it's money well spent and I'm pretty damn excited.

I think that's all from here, I'm not feeling too well and I wanna go watch the rest of "Mrs. Doubtfire"

Have a great night everyone!

~Carrie~

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

But I thought I would update this thing since I had a rather good weekend  but a not so good monday and I won't have the energy to update this thing by tomorrow night.

Soooooo, I think I last updated Thursday? Friday I did nothing really except some laundry. Big whoop. Oh! and I took Stephen to work and picked up Amber from work, and I got a free sub, so it was all good.

Saturday was the Grainger County Tomato Fest. Quite fun. I was in the Tomato War and was the last one on my team to get out. Here's the deal with the war: there are 2 teams of 6 players each on a field. The field has a few large barrels on it for the players to hide behind and a few boxes of tomatoes (some rotten, some fresh) on the field so we can arm ourselves. I was placed on a team with 5 other people who I didn't know, all of whom were in their 20's, they were some really nice people. None of them had been in a tomato war before (I've done it twice before) so yeah, they were asking me the best way to play, and the best I could say is to just move around a lot. So yeah, we're against this team of 6 guys who all looked like they were in their 40's, and they were all in matching Tony the Tiger t-shirts. Yeah. So. The other 5 memebers of my team got out right away. So this leaves me against these 6 dudes. People in the crowd were yelling "Don't let the little girl beat ya!" and that just got me going even more. So, I'm ducking and running and jumping ( I have video that I'll post somewhere once I get back to NY, cuz if I do it here the comp might seriously burst into flames) and I'm crouching behind this big barrel, I pop up chuck a tomato as hard as I can and instantly duck back behind the barrel and then I hear the whistle blow. Meaning, I HIT SOMEONE. Wooooooooot. I got someone out! Right in the chest too apparently. After I heard the whistle I lept up and ws cheering and singing and did this little happy dance that had the whole crowd laughing, and yeah. I was happy. But I got out a few mins later, so it was short lived. But I was quite proud of myself

I was sposed to have yesterday off, BUT, my boss, Art, called me around 5 Saturday night asking if I'd like to work so that Doris (one of the other line workers) wouldn't have to close by herself. I said I'd work cuz I don't think anyone should ever have to close by themself, it's the worst thing u can imagine. So I didn't have to be in until 1, so I was able to wake up and go to church with my grandpa in the morning which was nice since I never get to go cuz I've had to work every sunday morning since we got here. So work wasn't too bad, and I got a good chunk of overtime which is quite nice. But I get to work today and find out some crappy ass news. I had to close by myself. The one lady that was sposed to close with me is in Ohio or something, and the other hurt her leg lat week and isn't allowed to work the line. So that left me all by myself from 4 until 9. AND I get to do it all again tomorrow. Fan-freaking-tastic. I'm more than a little pissed. They sit there and do everything they possibly can to keep everyother person in that restaurant from closing by themself, and then they make me do it all alone. Bitches. That's the only problem I have with my job. I don't mind working the doubles or going in on my days off, as long as I get the same favors in return. But nope. Oh well.

I'm quite excited for Wednesday tho. Not only do I have a day off (woot) but I'm going on my first college visit to the University of Tennessee. I'm freaking excited. I've watned to go to this school since I was like...8. I can't wait to go get a real good look at the campus and stuff.

And Shawn is in Florida for the week, the lucky butthead. He gets to play with dolphins. Pfft, I'd do anything to get to play with a dolphin. Seriously. But yeah, I hope he has fun and hopefully I'll get to talk to him tomorrow after I get home.

Ok, I think that's all from here. Time for some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

~Carrie~

I love my job. But I'll get to that in a sec.

So my last update was like a week ago? Haven't done a whole lot in a week. Worked a lot, had yesterday off (and still went to Dollywood to play, cuz I'm super amazing like that). We went to Granny's to eat and Mandy almost passed out.She got really cold and clamy and turned super pale and couldn't stand up and said everything looked purple. But we got her to a seat and had her drink lots of water (and eat some ice cream) and she felt much better. She scared the hell outta all of us tho. We had half the hosts in the restaurant checkin in on her every 5 seconds which was sweet. And our waitress from yesterday,Jan, was asking  me if she was feeling better today when I was at work. After we ate we

And boy was today quite the day. I worked another double (the 2nd one this week). But Monday wasn't nearly as fun cuz I didn't close with Abby. Today was basically amazing. First off I didn't know I had to work a double until the other line girl fell on her ass and was too hurt to work (it was all a load of shit, but whatever) so she left around 4 right after taking her lunch break. Less than 2 minutes later Mary (the Person In Charge) comes walking up to me with the schedule in her hand and a big ass smile on her face.Sooooo yeah. But I'm not complaining cuz I seriously had soooooooooo much damn fun. I shouldn't be allowed to have that much fun at work. I don't think I ever actually stopped laughing. My damn stomach and cheeks still hurt. We spent a good chunk of the night harassing half the wait staff and our PIC (hardly any guests were in the restaurant so we didn't have anything to do). Jan dubbed us as Curly and Moe from the 3 stooges which we thought was kinda cute.After we finally got out of there we were racing eachother to our cars...umm yeah, that's a bad idea when ur in a dress. Not only did I almost trip and fall on my face, my dress decided to fly up in the breeze and I was about this close to letting all the people in the parking lot see what color underwear I had on.And we've decided that, no matter what, she's coming up to NY in February over Midwinter break with her 3 year old daughter and we're going to NYC for a few days. It's gonna be pretty damn sweet.

So yeah, thanks to the 2 doubles I pulled off this week, I now get a 3 day weekend which is fine by me.  Saturday I'm excited cuz we're going to the Tomato Fest (as long as it doesn't rain) and that's always a good time. And Sunday we might go to a couple of Flea Markets after church. And tomorrow is gonna be boring day which means I get to do laundry and work on the 3 books I have to read for AP Enligsh. So woot for that...I think?

I think that's about all from here.I'm ready for bed. Have a good weekend everyone!

~Carrie~

"You're leaving me in 3 weeks? What the hell? That makes me sad, I'm gonna have Down Syndrome now."-Abby
"Don't you mean depression?"-Me
"They're the same thing."-Abby
"Actually-"-Me
"I'm just kidding, I know the difference. I graduated for God's sake, I'm not that blonde"-Abby

So, I've had quite the week.

So, Wednesday night I went out and about around town with my Uncle Danny and Cousin Amber. We went to Wal-Mart so my uncle could get some shtuff he needed, then we went to Chik-Fil-A so he could get some dinner. So we're sitting there waiting for his food and our milkshakes when my Uncle starts hitting on the girl at the cash register, asking if she was married. She turned all red and gave us our stuff without saying anything, quite entertaining. Then my Uncle proceeded to give Amber and I some life lessons while eatting:
"Keep ur legs closed and don't put anything in your mouth."- Uncle Danny
"Like what?"-Amber
"You know what I mean smart ass"-Danny.
Meanwhile I'm laughing so hard I almost shoot chocolate milkshake out my damn nose. After that we went to see Pirates  It was basically the greatest movie I've ever seen.Period,end of discussion. It beats out "Amadeus" and "Rent" (which wasn't really all that good anyway) hands down. And the 3rd one needs to be out right about now

So,yeah, we went to the 10:10 screening of the movie, got home just before 1, and I finally laid down for bed at 1:30... I had to be up at 5 AM thursday for work. 4 hours of sleep? Totally worth it to see that movie. Work was...worky and nothing of great interest really happened all day.

Today I worked 6:30-4. It was quite fun. Work is guaranteed to be fun when Abbys there, and she's only there Wednesday thru Friday and she closes and I've been opening. So we really only work together for like 2 or 3 hours usually. But she was in at 10 today and I didn't leave till 4 so it was quite the fun day. I haven't laughed that hard in forever (see today's title for an idea of the stupidness we come up with). Gotta love it.

And today was pay-day, I'm quite pleased if I do say so myself. Granted some of that money may have to go to a new digital camera because my grandpa broke mine today. He took Brett fishing and he dropped it. It didn't fall in the water or anything, all there was was a little scuff on the screen. It looked perfectly fine.

No such luck.

The screen is smashed. It's totally useless. Half of the point of having a digicam is to see the pics on the screen right after taking 'em. So yeah, assuming my warranty ran out (which I think it may have?) or if I can't send it to Kodak to be fixed I'm gonna be shellin' out a good chunk of change for a new one.

And yeah, that's all from around here.

Have a good weekend everyone!

~Carrie~

Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Ah! Would u look at that. My last post was a month ago....totally by mistake, I didn't plan it to post it exactly a month after my last one... this is just the first good chunk of actual free time that I've had in... a month.

So, I've bee in lovely TN since... the 24th of June. We left that morning and made RECORD time by getting here in about 13 hours (it should take anywhere from 16-20 depending on traffic and who is driving, etc). We made it here in such good time partially because I'm a total lead foot and didn't really go below 85. And then Sandy is a whole other story. She didn't go below 90 and hit about 100 following some guy on I-81 for a good 20 mins. So yeah, we made some fantastic time.

That weekend we had a party for my grandpa's b-day. My Aunt Karen, Uncle Mike and cousins Josh and Joseph came over for the day. It was pretty fun and it was good seeing them again. The rest of the week we did some stuff around town. Went to Dollywood and Dolly's Splash Country and stuff. My mom and Sandy left the following Friday (the 30th).

I started work again at good ol' Aunt Granny's on the 29th after much trouble and fussing in the personal offices. I should have started 3 days before that, but they failed to tell me that I needed my birth certificate with me again before I could start working. It didn't even cross my mind to bring it because I knew they had eveything on file from last year. But nope, they couldn't use it even though it was right there in front of their faces on the freaking computer screen. So, Allen FedExed it to me overnight (cost me 27 bucks, but it was worth it) and we finally got everything straightened out. Aunt Granny's Year 2, here I come.

So basically work has been a slight pain in the ass. We're just massively understaffed and half the cooks are stupid and don't listen to us when we say we're running low on a certain type of food, so we end up running out and then the line workers (the people who take the food out to the buffet, ie:me) get yelled at for it by the guests. So my first week there was an absolute nightmare. That week, on Wednesday I was scheduled to open the shop, meaning I had to be in there by 6 AM, which isn't all that bad once you get used to being up at 5 in the summer. So yeah, I was due to leave at 3, but one of the line workers quit (the cute Russian kid named Yury) so they asked me to stay at close so Abby wouldn't have to do it by herself. So I had to stay till 9:30 that night. And to top all that off, I had to be up at 5 the next morning to come in and open. Needless to say, I was not a happy camper by Thursday morning, no to mentioned I was stiff as hell and could barely walk. Quite fun.

Plus sides of that whole fiasco: 1. I got to close with Abby and she's basically amazing and so much fun to talk to. 2. It makes for a real nice paycheck to get in that many hours in one week
Cons of said Fiasco: 1.Not being able to walk 2. being so tired that it's just icky. 3. the only cute guy that worked at Granny's quit.Bye Bye eye candy

But work has been getting a little better. The only thing I'm having a problem with is they're making me close by myself a few times a week (it's a lot of work for one person) and the fact that they're constantly having me close one night and turning around and opening the next morning. So after closing I don't get home til almost 10, so I basically have to come home shower and go straight to bed to be up by 5. It's not very fun.

In non-work related news: My Uncle Danny (my mom's twin and my all time favorite Uncle) has been staying with us. Long story short: he's going through a divorce and lost his job with Nascar, so he needs a place to stay. I'm glad he's staying here tho. He's seriously the greatest ever. He's like a kid and he's so much fun to hang around with. And to top it off his boys, Josh and Gabe, have been coming over on Saturday's. Before a couple weeks ago I hadn't seen them in like 3 or 4 years. Gabe was only 1 then and Josh was I think 3. So it's been really great getting to see those 2 and to play with them and stuff. They're so freaking adorable.

In other news, Shawn and I have been together for a Year and a flippin' half as of the first of this month  so woooooooooooooooot for that

I guess I could ramble about today a little? It was basically boring to start off with. I had the day off (thank God for that). Woke up around like 10 and  did a mass amount of dishes. Played with the doggies, did some reading, blah blah blah. Went with Amber to rent some games and movies around 5 once she got off work. Got "The Libertine" it was really weird and pretty good, but not amazing like I thought it would be. Oh well. And Amber's cat absolutely mauled my damn arm during the movie. I was petting him, and then Amber started poking him really hard and he attacked me. My left arm is all shredded up quite nicely and it hurts like a mofo.

Ok, so on that note I think it's time for bed. I have work tomorrow

I promise I'll try to be better about updating

~Carrie~

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

So, having no internet @ my mom's sucks butt.

And life has been hectic as hell lately and there's a whole lot of crap going on here (@ my dad's) that I didn't realize, that's gonna drive me crazy. So, I'll start with that:

I never posted about it, but about a month ago my grandpa blacked out in their front yard and no one knows why. When he fell he cracked a few ribs and they rushed him to the hospital in an ambulance. All the tests aren't showing anything so that's making everyone a lot more worried. So, I get here today and find out he fell down the stairs and seriously hurt both his ankles. So I mean he's really not doin too well right now and it's just got me really worried. Top that off with the fact that my grandma (in TN) is getting sick again. But we're going to take her to a new Dr as soon as we get there next week and find out what the hell is going on. So all I can really do right now is hope and pray that my grandparents get better.

And let's see, yesterday was quite the fiasco. It's a long story but here goes: My freak neighbors have this big doberman named Nigel ( I know, it's a fierce name). Well, I had no tests yesterday so I was home all day and was outside with Chopper a lot playing with him and stuff. And I notcied that Nigel had been out there all day long. Earlier in the morning when we went out there, he'd bark a lot like usually. But I noticed as the day went on (towards 3 in the afternoon) he was completely quiet. It looked like he was asleep on the ground. Around that time the lady who lives behind us, Lu, walked over to our yard and said she had called the Dog Warden about Nigel because he'd been out like that all day with no shelter and no water in that heat. So within a couple of minutes the Warden was there. I went over to help her since I know the dog decently well and everything. Then we saw what had really happened to him. He'd dug himself a hole, about 2 and 1/2 feet deep and backed himself into it to get cool. Well all that work in the heat caused him to have a sun stroke. He was completely unresponsive and wasn't respoding to water we were dribbing in his mouth. So the Warden called for the police to come help and she asked me to call the fire department. After all the calls her and I went to try and life him out, but he wasn't budging. So the cops got there about 10 mins later and got a shovel and had to dig him out. It took 3 of 'em to lift him out. They layed him on the grass and he still wasn't moving, his eyes were open but they were all glazed over. So one of the cops hosed him down for about a half hour, but he was cooling off too quickly and staretd convulsing (sp?) and that's probably one of the scariest things I've ever seen in my life. So, a little while later they rolled him onto a tarp and moved him into the front yard into the shade. About 10 mins later the kids got off the bus. Brett and Mandy went into our house while I finished up with the cops and everything, but the 2 neighbor kids (who are 9 and 6) had no one home, and their dad wouldn't be home for at least another half hour. And this happens everyday. So there 2 kids are home all alone for at least a half hour to an hour every single day. And I honestly wouldn't mind babysitting them til their dad gets home, but he always says no and makes them stay in their house till he gets there. So, needless to say, this looked really bad to the cops. So, their dad finally got home and as soon as he saw the cops he called his lawyer. One of the cops was saying that they have to be really worried about people who call their lawyers like that without first finding out what's going on. So after his phone call he looks over and sees his dog flopped out on the ground and he had like no reaction. Then he looked at me and Lu and gave us the worst look you can possible imagine. And he came over to pet the dog a couple of times before the cops asked him to step back so they could question him. The Head of the SPCA got there and took some pictures then took Nigel to the vet. After that the cops took down some info from Lu and I and then they left. A few hours later the wacko neighbors were back from the SPCA and they started asking me a million questions about what I told the cops and blah blah blah. They were pissed cuz no one would tell them where their dog was. Apparently they aren't being charged with animal cruelty (which is such bullshit) but I highly highly doubt they'll get Nigel back. But, assuming he makes it through all this, the poor thing probably won't ever be adopted out because he doesn't know how to react to humans, he doesn't know how to play or anything. So who knows what's gonna happen there.

Today has been a great day. We had an early b-day party for Brett since we'll be in TN on his real birthday. So we had a pool party for him and had a few kids from school over. After that I went over to Shawn's for a few hours to swim and stuff (after his mom invited me the other night ) and I had tons of fun over there. Left around 8:30 to get here in time.

And it's almost officially SUMMER. Woot! I've got 2 more test this week (USH and Chem) and I had the Math B Thursday (which I MAY have passed with like a 67). And I leave for TN next Saturday (the 24th) and I'll be workin back @ Aunt Granny's by the 27th. I'm excited, this is gonna be the last year I get to go to TN and stay for 6 weeks, and work is so much fun. I'm gonna miss everyone here, but I'm excited for summer (same deal as last year, I'm happy but sad at the same time )

Well, I think that's all from here... I need to go relieve this sunburn. I won't be able to update again till I'm in Tennessee. So have a great week everyone, and I'll catch ya next time from the big TN.

~Carrie~

Ok, so this is gonna be a kinda quick update, just so people stop yelling at me because I haven't updated since Prom.

No, I haven't stopped using my journal, it's just that not a whole lot has been going on to really update on. Cuz CNS sucks, and if I just update on my day @ school everyday then no one is going to know what the hell I'm going on about.

So I guess I'll just start with last Saturday and go from their:

Last Sat (the 27th of May): I got my car! It's amazing. It's a 1997 Mercury Sable.Except for a CD player and a sun roof it's got everything I coulda hoped for in a used car. It drives real well and aside from the radio being stupid for the first couple of days, nothing is wrong with it. Saturday night I went out to WG to play hide and seek with a bunch of losers. It was quite fun. Then I went to Harsma's and stayed the night there with Harsma,Speckie and the Evas. We stayed out in the camper and played Apples to Apples and talked and listened to music until like 3. At which time Eva C got violent because she had to wake up early for work.

Sunday: The Evas both had to get up and leave early. I was going to the zoo so I took Speckie and Harsma with me. We walked around for awhile and it was quite a lot of fun. Then I went home and pretty much did nothing. But my computer decided to get a virus and started slowly but surely crashing.

Monday: Memorial Day, no school. I spent the bulk of the day home alone doing homework and laundry. Then I went to Chuck's (Allen's Brother's) house for dinner and some swimming. Then I went home early to finish my work. Quite the fun day off (*rolls eyes*)

The whole week @ school was quite obnoxious, so I'll skip that. Except Shawn and Mine's 17 (Yes, 17) month anniversary was Thursday. So woot for that!

Came to my dad's yesterday cuz my mom left for a Nascar race in Dover,Deleware with Allen and some friends. My Uncle works in the pits for a Nascar racer, so he got them some free pit passes. Didn't do all too much yesterday aside from play some video games and read (shut up, I'm cooler than you)

Today: Is Shawn's 17th B-day.So,Happy Birthday to my one and only Dork(that is quite the ugly smiley). And we had my little cousin's b-day party today about a month late. But it was quite fun. My cousin almost set the whole house on fire trying to light the candles. Very amusing.

And now I'm here just kinda doing nothing.

OH! And I got my SAT score! 1862 out of 2400. The Average is like 1540. And guess what else! I whoopped Shawn's ass by quite a bit. I feel accomplished but I'm still gonna retake it in the fall. I've got ACTs next weekend, Shawn does too. And then hopefully he's gonna go up to Sandy's camp with us afterwards for the rest of the weekend 

And, u all suck, because ur last day of classes is Friday. I have to go until the following Tuesday.... bitches.

But I still luv u all.

And there won't be another update until like 2 weeks from now, because my comp @ my mom's is still dead. So unless we get it fixed soon, I won't be able to get online until I come back to my dad's.

And to all the freaks who keep coming on here leaving me randomass Tagboard comments: GO AWAY!!!!

Have a great weekend everyone!

~Carrie~

Happy Birthday again Shawn! ilu